That was the question at the end of an early morning email ... and, no , it wasn't an advertisement for one of the casinos that are within easy driving distance of here.
Ambivalent. Lethargic. Stalled.
It wasn't a junk email thing. It was sent specifically to me. So I guess that it's a REAL question.
Will I roll the dice? Emphasis on the "I".
And I am thinking ... sure ... I'll take the chance ... just show me what it is that I am "chancing" ...
It's been a gorgeous week outside & still I am somehow on hold ... with everything. Well, except I have persevered in the upstairs-to-downstairs-to-upstairs transitions in my house. Somehow I think that a change as simple as that is going to have a tremendous impact on Jessi ... and me. A positive impact!
Will I roll the dice?
In a fun little Facebook conversation on a friend's wall, a couple of people who knew me better back-in-the-day than they do today weighed in on the MJ they remembered.
Fearless. That's how she remembers me. Or so she says.
And everytime she says it, I shake my head in wonder. This gal knew me in elementary school. We were Brownies together. And off-and-on throughout those coming-of-age years we shared a whole bunch of other experiences, too.
Fearless. That's what her comment said last nite. Her memory of me. Then another friend chimed in:
"Yes, MJ, fearless!
You always seemed so confident in what you were doing,
whatever it may have been.
You had the air of, "I know what I'm doing is the right thing
to be doing right now!"
I was quite envious, and in awe."
I don't think he will mind if I share his comment here since he posted it there on Facebook where anyone who knows any of us could see it.
Yep, fearless ... well, that's what she said ... that's what he said ... so it must be true.
Somehow that's not exactly how I remember feeling all of those years ago. It sounds more like me today. And I thought it took two lifetimes to get here.
Do you think it's possible that who we really are shows through to the rest of the world ... even before we have discovered it for ourselves?!?
I am going to take that image of the young Mary Jane ... fearless & confident ... out into the world with me today.
Fearless. Free of fear. Brave. Having courage. Making a fine show. Excellent. Splendid.
I like the way it sounds. I like the way it feels. I like it that there are people ... from a time in my life when I had no clue who I was or what my possibilities were ... who remember me THAT way!
Cool. So very cool.
Will I roll the dice?
Well, duh. Everyone who knows me knows that I will. It's what I do.
Take a chance ... risk it all ... dream big ... believe ...
... anything's possible ... it's the way I roll ...
Fearless. Indeed.
(c) Mary Jane Sawyer 2010
LOVED the blog! Isn't it wonderful to see how others perceive you? Sometimes, it's uplifting and an affirmation that you're headed in the right direction after all! Hugs!
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